I feel so helpless. Maybe there are reasons behind, since there’s always reasons for everything.. I guess.

Supposedly, I aimed to reach home by 7! (after dinner with xin yu) end up I reached at 10! it was worthwhile, really.  I finally got to see TING-JIE after like half a year! I missed her! the way she scolds me.. Haha! and the way she talks and all, funny! but it means I’m not sleeping so early tonight cause I needa do my vi!

I rather be honest, be powerless than be selfish. I just wished I could something about it! but I’m way too young to get involved in these political matters!

Braces in less than a days’ time. I’m looking forward, yet.. somehow I feel butterflies in my stomach.

Have to go school and transfer some things in the thumbdrive!

Happy birthday FLOWER! ( in a few more mins’ time! ).

enjoy your 18th birthday! I love flowery prints! (random)

and i just realise many of my friends’ birthday falls on the same month as mine! isn’t it cooool?

Christmas comingg!

Went out with yu jia, qiu yin and qian ling(t) to iluma to watch ” gokusen”. Not too bad though! Haha. supposedly we wanted to go kbox. But it was really quite expensive so we went to watch a movie instead. : ) Had a fun time with them(as usual). Gonna meet them more often now that their exams are overrr! (all the best for qiu yin’s last paperr on monday!)

Kai xin went for “fish spa” just now! I really wanna try, it’s like real cool and you will be like laughing non-stop cause’ it’s itchy! Hahahaha.

Omg, jocelyn and I are talking about braces right now. like having the same colour together ) HAHAHA. I’m pretty scared it will be too painful because extraction and braces comes together. Hopefully not ehhh!! Hahaha!! Not gonna talk when I go school for workshop on monday I guess.. thinking what colour I should put now! HAHAHAH. (I didn’t realise having someone with braces would be so fun) heheh.

I’m going to try to attend service without lying with candyy and abigail! join my net toooooooooooo. HAHAHAHAH.

Ugh,  I thought I dl rhino in my hard disk.. guess what, I didn’t.. it’s just a  ” 1kb” so actually I didn’t dl at all. but it’s oay! I can borrow from jocelyn again!

I wonder if I’ll be able to sing next friday after braces is in my mouth. Can la, can right?

Pulau Ubin’s fun! (except the tower – but at least i DID went up yeah – requires courage!! HAHAHA) pictures will be uploaded in fb and here soon!! there’re some things that can only be seen in ubin.  On our way back, most of us slept. reach home about 7? bathe and went for cg. I miss abigail. (& her laughter) HAHA. – awwww, it was really nice of her to bake some cookies for us. Monopoly was fun! ( shi yong, carrisa,pertunia, daniel and abigail’s brother were there) Well, I managed to get back home on time! I thought she has forgotten about me.. but she have never.

The moment I htink of myself having to do rhino and khairul’s drawing and rendering, I feel so…… t i r e d. (haha) and there is still vi”( rhino, sketches, research, typography, redo acrylic on monday. So, I’m most probably staying at home the whole day tomorrow and do all those stuff.

I hope flower and elyn have a good time today (of course they will! )

I’m gonna try, gonna try harder, even if it’s difficut at first. wanna do well, do pretty well. (:

OH….shopping on sunday!! HAHAHAHAH!!

yes,  you.

I like jeremy,very much and I don’t know why either!! I.. feel quite shy even saying out here but I really needa say. Ah, there’s a lot of jeremy in this world so I don’t think anyone will know who I’m talking except that FEW of them right… Ah, pardon me for saying kay! I like him, wanna talk him but I feel…..so shy about it! really!! So, I can’t only vent it out here and only here. I don’t think anything’s gonna happen too. Just feel like saying it out!

pulau ubin here I come! HAHAHAHAHAHA

I love my rendering! seriously,I wanna sleep now. slept at 5plus in the morning just to complete it.. but I only complete two of them! Phew, lucky the rest were small.. HAHAHAHAHAH.

Oh oh, anthony promised to update. Haha, so I’m gonna go his blog tomorrow. Hahaha

Gonna do loads of stuff during this weekend.

Braces next monday, I’m..s-c-a-r-e-d(extraction). but just go. HAHAHAHA. yeah..

I feel so shit when I couldn’t even draw a perspective view. I know things at the start are often the most difficult. I know I should just wait and see, who knows, things might just turn out fine eventually for all I know. But sometimes, when I look back,I regret. I regret not using my portfolio and get into vc ( might have a chance to! ).

I FOUND THE PENCIL CASE ( DINO AND BUDDY) GAVE TO ME ON 15TH BIRTHDAY! thank god I found it! It was still in the lecture hall when I went to see. So glad, so glad!! but the lecture hall was dark.. I almost didn’t dare to go in at all. I’m so happyyyy I foundd it!! ) AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Hamster and I click rather well. HAHAHAHAHA good time laughing today with her. : ) thank you! (p.s 15mins everyday can help lose5kg in a year right? ) Gonna try! Hahahahah

 

Have you ever wonder?

I’m gonna wash my hands off you soon.

went school in the morning to get my rhino done. straight after I went for lesson at lecture room. then head to kf for lunch for hamster, shi min and ant. went back home, realise  I don’t have much time left to complete my stuff for colour studies and khairul’s drawing and rendering so I didn’t want to work. Xin yu called and check but they couldn’t find replacement so I went down for work as usual. reach home earlier like 10plus..

I’m gonna stop the crush here cause nothing’s gonna come out of it I guess!

I’ve always wanted myself to learn things faster( but I can’t) Been in thai express for a long time, but I still can’t get the drinks right still. very sad. But I’m gonna try still, even if it takes me a long while to get it right. I’m gonna make sure I get it all right before I leave this place. New part-timers! I’m first in the part-timers listtttt. HAHAHAHAH. (super happy about it man!) Kelvin loo came back.. cool. Got to know new people like ” I.d”, “panda” and grace (full-timer though). sometimes I do wish I could be like xin yu, adapt to things easily, learn things fast! I wish I can, but I know my own limits. well, that doesn’t mean I can’t try right right? haha!

The only thing I wanna do now is to sleeeep.

I’m beginning to take things easy, but I won’t stop caring about people with “!!”, seriously. they meant A LOT to me and it matters to me whether they’re happy or sad. this applies to the “!!” people in my contact list.

All right, I wanna reach school as early as possible to do as much rhino as I can! ( I have to remind myself not to forget to bring thumbdrive! )

And there’s still khairul’s drawing and rendering, plus VI.

Hamster and I were laughing at some things I said that was like “DUH” HAHAH. well, I think I make no sense too..and sometimes the things I asked is like ” DUH” kinda thing. hahahahaha

Pulau Ubin on fridayy!

Braces coming monday ( P.s:somebody’s birthday) I’m really afraid.. of the extraction. I just hope the anesthetic ( is it spelled like this?) will be so strong, I’ll just not feel any PAIN in my gum at all.. I’m just afraid of the pain when they extract my tooth because the tooth is not loose at all and they’re gonna extract through some rough ways I guess. really,I’m scared. After that it will be extreme diet (porridege) for the next few weeks! (thats what I heard from some of my friends and my cousin) I’ll see how it goes..  it will be fine jing yi, will be fine…

I feel I’m such a coward. Maybe they’re right, I might only say a bye to you on graduation three years later, ugh! that would be the last thing I wanna do. com’on, gonna have some courage.. But I’m s.h.y.  and it’s either I talk a lot when I see you or I just shut up. I seriously seriously (x10) want to get to know you, but I… ugh,FINE!.

I’ve got lovely parents and brothers. HAHAHAH.

sometimes, when I say something comforting to my friends, i feel it’s like maybe “wth” to them.. Well, not gonna think so much!HAHAHAH.

 

I was late (again)! Gonna try not to be late in meeting hamster tomorrow at 10 or else she will have to wait for a while again. ( the last time was 1hr 20mins) this time of course not gonna wait anymore! Hamster and I waited 2 1hours plus/2hr just to buffer the acrylic. Mr wu is….l.a.m.e. Well, it was because I think I was too bored inside and started asking questions like “duh”. HAHA.

Colour studies tomorrow. stil deciding if I should redo my first assignment. I guess I’ll. Omg,I like my 2nd and 3rd assignments! and the one thats coming our way, kanvas shoesssssss. hahahahahaha. omgomgI’m like so looking forward to it. hehe

Ubin on friday!

and…. somebody’s birthday’s coming sooooooooooooooon. (:

I know you’re gonna help me but… I’m too..shy, R.E.A.L.L.Y. I know this sounds stupid but yes, I’ll get all tense up when I see him!

this is  johnny babe! HAHAHA

 

 

 she’s cat. and these are the lovable babies of mine.

 

 

this is dad’s creation. ( dad: two strokes on the face. mum: two strokes on the hair! funny initials they have eh. Ask dad!

OH NOOOOOOOOOO. SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT.

Actually, I was supposed to be finding some research for vi and gadgets.. but I just can’t get anything started, really (feeling lazy laa).

Ah, I gotta admit, I always make myself sleep at wee hours in the morning (to chiong work ) but actually I should have done it during the weekends instead of the day before laa.

OMG, I like colour studies and typographyy. drawing and rendering still…..not too bad. HAHAHA.

Class at oneeeeeeeeeeee. YESSSSSS,that means I can sleep in! I could have..but now I can’t cause I’m gonna wake up earlier just to find some research for vi.  I’m glad to have nice seniors in my vi….

 

Growing up process, etc.

I hate the process of growing up. I just feel kinda irritated just now. I really don’t wanna think so much into it. Wanna be like the rest..nonchalant about anything but I can’t. why do I feel bad about a lot of little things? Man, I’ll take it as part of growing up? but this bad feeling(guiltyness) that I always have won’t fade away so easily. it’s like stick to my head kinda thing. Well, gonna try to! hahahah and I always feel happier when I get to see mr smiley. hehe. just a simple smiley will dooooo.  And I’ve got dad to talk to, I’ve kai xin and candy and yu jia they all to talk to! I shouldn’t feel this way..should just CHEER UP.hahahahahahahahahaha yeahhhh. Actually, I’ve got no idea why I seem to cheer up rather easily.. (yu jia says so too). but, look on the positive side! Life’s like that..and life goes on! whther you’re upset/feeling down…yeah. AIYA..

YES! there’s no photoshop tomorrow! I can sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

Work’s fine, hahahahah and fun (as usual with kah yen) Fishy didn’t work, willie also didn’t..but I still got KAHYEN! hahaha. thank you kai xin! for waiting for me and going back home together after. Now you know who is xin yu right.. hahaha. Stay inside thai express and chatted (and eat..HAHA) before we finally went back home. I forgotten the lights at our void deck wasn’t working and it was dark when I reach. it was scary. I regretted going home so late.

Had breakfast as a family again! Dad and I chatted on the way while he sent me to work in the morning.. we have our usual laughs and chatting.